Birthday

To my dearest Mom,

Today would have been your 66th birthday.

It has been over 2 months since you left me and I’m still overwhelmed with emotions every day. I can’t control it…the sadness, the crying, the depression . . . . I try to hide it well and stay strong but deep inside I’m all a mess without you in my life. I’m grateful to have you as my Mom in my life. I just wished it was longer.

I remember you telling me a story that you haven’t told anyone else before and I would like to share it here. You told me this story after your 65th birthday last year. You mentioned that when you were younger that you always wondered what 2020 would be like. You always thought 2020 was a unique number and that you calculated that you would be retired at 65 by then. But you also mention that you never thought past 2020. That it foretold your fate.

A friend of mine helped me get the electric incense for you since I can’t find it anywhere here. I hope you like it. It will always be on. Got some artificial flowers as well because it will always look beautiful just like yourself.

I also created a new section on this site for the Angel Series of my sonnets. I will use it to express my feelings.

Sonnet 28 – Candle 1.21.21 (Angel Series)
That spark of light,
Signals the creation of life.
It’s quite bright,
For your love was rife.

I light that candle every year,
To celebrate your love and happiness.
But this time is so very different dear,
For we will experience tranquilness.

This candle is not the one I desire,
It is the one that you deserve.
For I will light a big bonfire,
To keep all your love preserved.

That light on the day of your birth,
Also symbolizes the day you left earth.

I miss you Mom! I love you!! I will always remember you!!!